Would I?

You feel prepared
You feel knowledgeable
Up to the very last second
You feel powerful
Like you would impress yourself
Like you would impress them
Then the time draws near
you hear the voices announce your turn
you feel confident walking up there
you feel confident opening it up
you feel ....
pessimistic
timid
fearful
unassured
nervous
vulnerable
you are wavering
where did you come from
you sprung up on me without my knowledge
you want to consume me
withhold me
challenge me
you want to tell me who I am
what I am capable of
you want to tell me you control me
you want to tell me to let go and give in
you want me to listen.
but would I?