It’s a learned behavior

It’s a learned behavior

a gateway to address a past hurt or resentment

 without coming out vulnerably to talk about what  really bothers you.

a way to get their attention 

than it is actually about the incident

the subject is merely a facade

it allows you to act out on the deeper message 

that you feel frustrated or not important 

without having to admit to feeling this way

 the true source of discontent is never resolved,

 creating cycles of prolonged frustration and resentment

- Fehr 

Sometimes I don't want to be in it

because then I wont have to think about it

I  can sleep peacefully at night

knowing I have no worries

but then later I crave it

and I find myself back in the same position again

longing but not wanting

craving but not needing

trapped in the thoughts

 avoid the internalizing

because then you would know how I'm truly feeling.