Let him in

He is close to you
always has been always will be
but you ignore him
sometimes you remember the connection you once had
sometimes you try to fix things
confess it all
sometimes when you are ready
you hear nothing
absolute silence
and you wonder what you did wrong
you keep going about the same routine
living the life
living the life..but knowing something is missing
what is it
you have forgotten again
but he hasnt
he waits patiently for you to recall
you get distracted by the calling guilty pleasures
sometimes you hear the voice inside you
most of the times you push it out saying youll ask for forgiveness later
just this one time
this one time..
one time?
no.
its not just one time
it has become a constant thing you do
not  just when your bored
now its something you do because you just cant resist
you are addicted.
you cry for help
but do you actually want it?
a part of you does
He sits in silence watching you
not just watching you but over you
he knows
he knows how you feel inside
you want to crawl back into his arms and just make it right
will you make it this time
the temptation is strong
you can do it
but you need to be willing..truly willing
let him in.