My mind had enough
Numb
Anxiety
Numb
Hyperventilate
then an Overflow
I cant deal with this cycle anymore
They tell me I am suppressing my emotions
but which? I don't know the trigger of it all
I'm lost and confused, the things I can think of seem trivial
but whatever it is it needs to stop. I need to stop bottling it all up.
My body didn't listen to my mind
Last night was scary, I am so glad there was someone around
I don't know what I could have done
It was like I was not in control of my body anymore.... in the words of basic logic:
"Everything is fine, everything is so fine
'Cause I’m good, so good
I wish you would, this is my life
This is my all, And now I’m happy, right now I’m happy, but sometimes...
I’ma get up in your mind right now
Make you feel like dying right now
I’ma make you pray to God
To the good old Lord for a sign right now
“I’ma make it some day some how” what you telling yourself
But you ain’t focused on whats important: mentality, health
People in the street going ape shit
Battling depression but nobody wanna say shit
I'ma bring it back to the basics
suddenly I was engulfed with fear and panic
As my body began to fade
In this moment my mind was full of clarity
But my body insisted it was in danger
I looked around and I told myself I was safe, I was fine
But I was convinced that something was wrong
Before I knew it I felt as though I was going to
Fall and fade away
My body grew weak
And soon enough I found myself in a hospital being told what I went through was anxiety
I refused to believe this story
I searched and searched for the cause of what had happened to me
I began to feel detached from reality
I felt as though I was seeing the world through a glass
But how could it be anxiety?
How could anxiety make me physically feel off balance?
How could anxiety make me feel as though I was fading from this world and on the brink of death?
Derealization
The sense of being out of one’s body
I’m not here
I’m not me
I’m not real
Nothing is
Nothing but this feeling of panic
Nobody understands
Nobody knows the sufferings
This physical feeling
It can’t be anxiety
It can’t
Or can it?
Can it in fact be the mind controlling the body?
Yeah, of course
I’m so in control of my mind and my body
But I’m subconsciously forcing myself into a state
Of self bondage entangled by the ropes of my own mind
I am unhappy
Not with life
But with this feeling
I am scared, I am human"
Anxiety
Numb
Hyperventilate
then an Overflow
I cant deal with this cycle anymore
They tell me I am suppressing my emotions
but which? I don't know the trigger of it all
I'm lost and confused, the things I can think of seem trivial
but whatever it is it needs to stop. I need to stop bottling it all up.
My body didn't listen to my mind
Last night was scary, I am so glad there was someone around
I don't know what I could have done
It was like I was not in control of my body anymore.... in the words of basic logic:
"Everything is fine, everything is so fine
'Cause I’m good, so good
I wish you would, this is my life
This is my all, And now I’m happy, right now I’m happy, but sometimes...
I’ma get up in your mind right now
Make you feel like dying right now
I’ma make you pray to God
To the good old Lord for a sign right now
“I’ma make it some day some how” what you telling yourself
But you ain’t focused on whats important: mentality, health
People in the street going ape shit
Battling depression but nobody wanna say shit
I'ma bring it back to the basics
suddenly I was engulfed with fear and panic
As my body began to fade
In this moment my mind was full of clarity
But my body insisted it was in danger
I looked around and I told myself I was safe, I was fine
But I was convinced that something was wrong
Before I knew it I felt as though I was going to
Fall and fade away
My body grew weak
And soon enough I found myself in a hospital being told what I went through was anxiety
I refused to believe this story
I searched and searched for the cause of what had happened to me
I began to feel detached from reality
I felt as though I was seeing the world through a glass
But how could it be anxiety?
How could anxiety make me physically feel off balance?
How could anxiety make me feel as though I was fading from this world and on the brink of death?
Derealization
The sense of being out of one’s body
I’m not here
I’m not me
I’m not real
Nothing is
Nothing but this feeling of panic
Nobody understands
Nobody knows the sufferings
This physical feeling
It can’t be anxiety
It can’t
Or can it?
Can it in fact be the mind controlling the body?
Yeah, of course
I’m so in control of my mind and my body
But I’m subconsciously forcing myself into a state
Of self bondage entangled by the ropes of my own mind
I am unhappy
Not with life
But with this feeling
I am scared, I am human"
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