No. 7

This time its mild

Starts off slowly

Creeps up on you at the most random time

You know its about to happen but you don’t know how severe 

You lay down doing nothing just feeling the pressure on your chest 

Thinking.. maybe if i stay really still itll go away ..

It doesn’t.

You try googling for reassurance that you aren’t crazy

That someone out there experiences it too

Somehow the reassurance is comforting but not enough 

You play every kind of music designed to help deal with it

You begin to think its working

But no

You lie there with chest pain and tears falling down

Unable to pinpoint the cause

This time you don’t even try to

Its clear it operates on irrational thoughts

Its clear it has no sympathy 

Its clear it decides when it wants to stop, not you.

Dealing with that monster that is anxiety