Unuterrable confessions

How can I even describe it

It always comes out of nowhere

its so overwhelming 

and you know your heart doesn't want to label it, acknowledge it, deal with it

because you refuse to accept its real

you know you'll be fine

its just keeps trying to tell you that you won't

that something is wrong

that you will never figure out what it is

it whispers in your ear that you are trapped with this feeling and it won't let you go

not unless you finally decide to sink.

You hear its words but you try not to listen

filling your mind with every distraction possible

no I'm fine

you tell yourself...

but you can't tell yourself why you are

it tells you...things are good.. for now..but wait.. its coming.

what kind of evil does it wish upon you.

There is no one to speak to about it because its just...incomprehensible and embarrassing.

The looks of pity and confusion would rather be avoided.

You shrug off as much of the feeling as you can.

You keep pushing forth.